oh dear lord!

i'm finally finished! i still didn't get everything done that i wanted to, or to the extend i wanted, but i'm done. no more! now i'm just waiting for clayton to get home so we can actually spend a few minutes together, but not too long since i have to wake up at the freaking crack of dawn to "celebrate" the beginning of my summer. woo. i feel pretty bad because he is super sweet and had a ton of surprises lined up for me when i got home, but i just had to do more homework since i didn't get hardly anything done today. i worked so hard too, it doesn't make any sense! he's so sweet and i feel terrible. maybe tomorrow will make up for it. or the diet coke and candy i brought home. more likely tomorrow would help ;).
i almost have no idea what to do since i won't have homework anymore. i think i go through this shock after every semester, yet i adjust much more quickly than i imagine i will, of course. i'm hoping to get a lot of reading done this summer, and i would also love to finally learn how to play my guitar after all these years. i've said that before tho, so we'll see. i'm going to try and be a better housewife/wife as well. clayton has taken up most of the cooking and cleaning responsibilities sadly, so i really want to make it up to him. he's been so patient and understanding through these past semesters since we've been together. hopefully i can live up to my own expectations and exceed his.
well this is all for now. lets hope i did as well as i thought i would this time last week. fin <3

oh boy

i have worked pretty solid for about two hours and just now finished one of the study questions. so one down, one study question to go, one paper to write, one essay to write, and one script to revise. i hate procrastination and overestimating my abilities! i could definitely use a break, but i don't feel like i deserve one haha! i also don't want to get distracted and end up putting myself even farther behind. hopefully everything else will be less time consuming or easier to finish. oh wish me luck! i really want to finish this semester well!

done but not done

just finished my last final about an hour ago! i can't believe this semester is over. but then again, its not yet. i still have two papers to write, two sets of study questions to turn in, and a script to revise. (hooray! or not). oh well. some of it will be fairly easy, but some of it i have no idea what to do. my play was too long and it had a lot of unnecessary small talk. having never written a play before, i have little to no idea how to change it. i've been thinking about it since i wrote it, so maybe inspiration will strike and ill be more than fine.
on the bright side tho, i just got back my Shakespeare research paper i wrote, and i got an unexpected A+!! i couldn't believe it! hopefully that will keep my grade high enough to pass. i have a feeling i did terrible on the final, but i think the essay could save me. maybe.
now i'm in the Edmond Public Library trying to tie up all these loose ends and finish off the semester in the best way possible. i think this could be the first semester in which i actually have good grades! lol. kristie has put me to shame ever since she started, but she knew what she wanted to do and she's good at it. i had no idea what i wanted and i apparently sucked at everything i tried, or at least didn't do great. so its nice to see that change for once. she's already out of class and officially started summer. tonight will be the start of mine. and i think it will be a good start.

sleeping beauty

for some reason, all week i've tried to be productive-wake up early and get things done. but every time i've tried, i wake up at ten instead. normally this wouldn't be too much of a worry, but my Shakespeare final is tomorrow at 9. since i live in Norman, i have to leave at least 45 minutes before class to get there on time. i have never in my life been a morning person, you can ask anyone who has seen me before 10 am. so i'm a little worried needless to say. not only am i worried about getting there on time, i'm worried about my grade. i have no idea what grade i have going into the final, and i don't think my professor likes me in the least. this is the only class i'm worried i won't get an A in. i'm almost worried i won't pass at all. so we'll see. maybe she'll surprise me, or i'll surprise her, or surprise myself. it would be really great to raise my GPA significantly as well.this semester has been truly great. i hope the next one is equally as great or maybe even better. and i hope i can make it to my final on time! as well as finish everything else i have to finish on time. fingers crossed!

finals finale

i am surprised to say that i'm going to be really sad this semester is almost over. it seems like it just started and now all of a sudden its coming to an end and it sure seemed to sneak up on me. but on the other hand i feel like it's been a long semester. i've gotten to know a lot of people that i will miss over the summer, and found some new favorite professors. i was really surprised by how much i enjoyed my classes and the people in them. i was lucky enough to take a lot of the same professors next semester, and i was glad about that for sure. but i realized today and this week that all of the people in my classes are not going to be taking the same class or professors with me next fall and it made me sad. maybe its just because its may and i'm starting to hear and see everyone leave. i just get sentimental i guess. i'm not very good with change either (unless its my major).

i had my last Hemingway class today and my last editing and marketing class. i went over what i wrote for my research paper for Hemingway. she really encouraged us to revise our papers and submit them for symposiums or publications, so i might check into doing that. i know my paper could use some revisions since i wrote it so last minute. i'm going to edit it and add to it and email it to her, she's going to make a copy of everyone's and add them all up for a book like she did for our short stories. everyone wrote about really interesting topics, and everyone had a different outlook on similar topics, and new approaches i had never thought of, so i think it would be really interesting and educational to read over them. i was really really really sad to see that class leave. she gave me a hug tho, so that made it better haha!

we had our last editing and marketing class today too. we had a pizza party which was awesome and made me feel like i was in elementary school again. he even brought a former student in to perform his new opera for us. it was amazing. ive never heard an opera like this one, so it was very interesting for sure. it was nice to get to talk to everyone in the class too. i was very surprised how close i became with them and they all seemed to care a lot about my project and really believe in it, which was super encouraging. its going really well and easily so hopefully that will keep up and i can send off some great material. he still really wants to push it as a TV show which is exciting and awesome. its so amazing to think that i enrolled in this class as a whim and how dramatic an impact its made on my life. i hadn't written in years, and when i had, no one other than my wonderful mother found it decent in any shape or form. now i have a professor pushing to get my work published and maybe even adapted into a show. that alone means a lot to me. i'm going to keep working on it this summer and meet with him two or three times to edit it and such. i think he's going to send it off in a few weeks just to see if anyone is interested. i think he said in class today that he had someone who already really liked the idea and wanted to see some material so we'll see how that goes. its almost astonishing to me that this is happening to me and i couldn't be more pleased or excited.

my Hemingway class has really opened a lot of different perspectives to me too. i look at things differently now. and i love his work more than ever, even though he never ever gives me a happy ending that i always still try to find no matter what. i think its ironic that i like his novels and short stories so much. he never really tells you exactly whats going on, and i always like to have as much information as possible. and of course i love happy endings, but i'm always amazed at how perfect his endings are. i think i bore a lot of my friends to death when i talk about Hemingway. i have Clayton convinced i should be a literature professor, which would be an awesome job, but i think i've already been in school long enough...maybe ;). he also thought i should be a zoo keeper. maybe the two are related someway, who knows.

so i'm happy and sad and that just about sums it up :) i definitely have a intriguing summer laying ahead of me, and probably an even more intriguing fall semester a head of that. i look forward to it for sure

this week's end

so i had a pretty busy weekend! friday after class, my lovely honorary mom took my sister and i out to eat at the Cheesecake Factory. i had never been, and i love cheesecake and spending time with my sister and Tina, so it was beyond awesome. the food was great, the cheesecake was great, the company was great. and i had leftovers! after we ate our cheesecake, Kristie and I went to one of my new favorite stores, Half Price Books. i've tried my best to just stay in the book department, since i can do enough damage just in that small section. kristie, however, found all sorts of things i didn't know existed in that store. it is fantastic. then we went to a friend's house for the first official cookout of the summer! they should have had their baby girl by now come to think of it! woohoo!

so that leads us to saturday naturally. i met my professor, Dr. Warren, my editing prof. we went over another few pages i've written for my novel. he wants me to have three chapters, an overview, and title page ready for wednesday so he can have it ready to ship off to agents! we'll see how it goes, but i'm still excited that i even have three chapters to go off of. its going really well and i still have a lot of material to work on. hopefully i'll be able to get a lot done this summer.

after my meeting, i met mom and Kristie at Sooner Fashion mall so Kristie could apply for some jobs and we did a little bit of shopping. kristie of course found great things for super cheap, the lucky duck! hopefully she'll be able to find a summer job too.

after the mall, krisite, clayton and i headed to Diamond Ballroom to watch the Circa Survive and Coheed and Cambria show! both bands were really great, there was another band before Circa, but i have no idea what their name was and i didn't really get into their music. there seemed to be a few people who knew who they were, tho, so that was nice.

i loved Circa, but i really didn't like the set up they had to play in. diamond ballroom has a ton of space but a tiny tiny stage. its not far off the floor, so i could barely see anything in the first place, and it was so small that Anthony Green, the frontman for Circa, actually made a comment about his surprise of not falling off. he did fall, but not off the stage. he seemed to have hurt himself pretty bad, so i think Diamond should seriously consider a different stage set up. we paid way too much money in the first place. Diamond has a gravel lot, a tiny stage, and bathrooms that my husband won't even use. i think some serious renovations would be well worth it. it could really be a decent venue if it did, at least in my opinion, for whatever that's worth. coheed was great too, but i was pretty worn out for some reason, and so was clayton, so we left before their set was over.

sunday was yet another adventure. i sure hope this isn't boring anyone to death yet! we slept in and sadly didn't make it to church. clayton got 8 redhawks tickets for the 7:05 game so we all went to bricktown to eat and catch the game. we just grabbed something quick at McDonalds and drove over to the lot a few minutes early. that's when we noticed the crowds. we thought it was odd that they were leaving the stadium rather than entering it, so clayton checked our tickets. they had 7:05 written on the envelope outside, but the tickets actually said 4:05. needless to say, it was the bottom of the 9th and there was no point of going in. so we went on a canal ride instead and got maggie moo's ice cream. so even tho we missed the game, i think it still turned out pretty okay.

i'm almost caught up, and usually my life isn't really this eventful, but for some reason it has been lately. maybe it always is and i just fail to notice. monday i got to sleep in for the first time in i don't know how long, well other than sunday, but still. i had lunch with clayton and then i went to get a haircut finally! it turned out really nice, i like it a lot! it was definitely time for one. i finished reading Water For Elephants, which we will be discussing in our book club next week! can't wait! it was really great and i think it will be easy to talk about and fun. we had dinner and watched tv or something along those lines when clayton got home. afterwards was when all of the excitement began.

clayton and i decided to go for a bike ride to pick up some toilet paper of all things. i have a basket on my bike, so i got the privilege of carrying some of it home for all the world to see. clayton had the remainders in a plastic bag but he had to carry it with him on his bike. we were almost home when i noticed up ahead the curb had a steep drop off ramp onto the street. a tree with many low hanging branches was right before it. i worried that clayton wouldn't be able to slow down enough and would get hurt. apparently he made it through just fine, i didn't see. i ducked as low as i could on my bike and panicked. instead of grabbing my break, i froze and yelped something at clayton to warn him that i was going to hit him. hit him i did, right in his back tire. as i was falling, i almost laughed, thinking this could be pretty funny. then i hit the ground, my bike coming down on top of me. my shoe ended up ahead of me, entangled on Clayton's bike tire somehow. i was half on the ground and half way still on my bike if i remember correctly. my foot seemed to already be turning blue and my ribs hurt so bad i just wanted to lay on the ground. i got up and we continued on the short journey back home. i put ice on my foot for the rest of the night, and when i changed out of my jeans, i noticed a few scrapes. i thought the worst could be my foot, since i would be working on my feet all today, so i payed extra attention to it. my bike is in pretty okay shape, especially since its a vintage. Clayton noticed i broke a spoke and the Schwinn emblem on the front scuffed up. i think he fixed the basket a little too. other than that, i think its fine. this morning my foot was a little tender, but it was nothing compared to my left leg. i have a huge scrape and the biggest darkest bruise i've ever had in my entire life. its kinda cool, but its stiff when i walk. my shoulders are pretty sore today too, but other than that im pretty more than fine. i even worked a longer shift than i thought i would, so that seems to be a good sign. hopefully it won't be worse tomorrow. my first final is that day, but not til 1 so i plan on sleeping in again (fantastic!). i love this finals week! but i won't get into that. this is an epic post, sorry if i bored you to death!

super shuffle

ok, back to our regular programing-music! sorry about the exposition, hopefully its wasn't as bad as that clip we keep watching in my creative writing class, but it seemed necessary. anyways, i've wanted to write about this for a really long time, so here we go.

i believe the greatest thing about my Ipod (other than capacity) is shuffle. i realize that shuffle is nothing new, but that's the beauty of shuffle, its different every time. i started to really use shuffle when i didn't know what i wanted to listen to, but my Ipod sure seemed to know exactly what i wanted. its almost creepy that it knows so well, but every time it plays that one song after another favorite song after another favorite song, i'm sure i look something like a little kid in a candy store with thousands of dollars to spend on whatever they want. i dance, sing at the top of my lungs, and sometimes speed excessively and get pulled over (that's happened twice now, oops!) the best thing that shuffle can do other than read my mind is pull up songs i've completely forgotten about, or even never heard before that are simply fantastic. i would never have picked that artist or song on my own, yet my lovely shuffle did. i often feel slightly ashamed when an amazing song comes on and i had no idea it even existed inside my music library, yet i am still grateful every time. i wish my CD player or even our turntables could preform this function, but they are both sadly limited in this department, but that's why i love them in a different way. so if you're bored with your music, all you have to do is shuffle ;)